Married 44 wonderful years. Both of us had previous marriages that weren't at all successful. And in 44 years we never were apart except for one day. I am 75 and he was 76 in Dec, 2018, about 2 weeks ago he died at home. Now what? Nothing really. Still have our 19 year old cat. I am hoping that she becomes the oldest cat ever , she is all I have . Just wondering what I will do.. Hate traveling and all friends moved away years ago. Just want to know if I am feeling normal. I feel lost , so alone, and basically useless. Maybe if I last a few years, I won't feel so awful.