Im a 24 year old female from NY. My boyfriend and I had lived together, we were going through rough times so I moved out for a few weeks. We were fighting but still madly in love trying to figure out how to make things work. On Thursday the 25th I FaceTimed him telling him I would be at a bar by my house and seeing what he was up to. We had gotten into a very very small argument.This was at 7:03pm. He had told me he would meet me there however I told him no and that I would be having dinner with a friend. He got onto his motorcycle to go meet me. At around 7:12 an suv cut in front of his bike and he tboned it unable to stop. He suffered severe head trauma and was DOA. Once I had gotten done with dinner around 10:00 I had gone home and called him angrily because he had not texted me. I sent him a large paragraph about how he has the worst mentality about how he doesn’t deserve nice things but that he deserves only the best and he needs to get over it. 15 minutes later I received a call from his best friend saying that he had been in an accident and that he wasn’t responsive with no brain activity. I made it to the hospital 10 minutes before they took him off life support. I’m crushed, I feel so numb and I dream of him. I can’t eat without taking a Xanax to calm my nerves. I keep talking to him out loud. We planned to get married one day and have children. None of my friends understand what our bond was like because I was always with his friends. I don’t feel like I can even trust my best friend with the way I’m feelingbecause she’s too fragile and it makes me angry.