Hi Taylar, I know you have heard this a million times just as I have but Im so sorry for your loss. Like you this is a new thing for me with my husband only being gone for 3 days. He was 38 and I am 35 it feels so unreal, like he is gone to work and will be home any minute. I am glad I came across this site though it makes it a little easier talking to some people that really know what you are going through... I here is you want to vent.