I lost my significant other of 5 years suddenly to an automobile accident. We were not living together at the time due to alcoholism. He had been making improvements and hadn’t drank in over one month. We were in a good place. He was to move back in with me when his lease was up in October. He spent everyday he had off together. I was his beneficiary along with his mom. His mother did not include me in planning services and made me feel like I didn’t matter. In my heart I know Kyle loved me with his whole heart and would do anything for me. His mother also turned his coworkers against me. To my knowledge their relationship was rocky. He was my first love and he became a better man for me. I feel like I have just shut down and am not allowing myself to deal with emotions. He was my rock and helped me live my life to the best I could.