Cora1961,
I wish I could take your pain away. So very sorry for your loss.
Days can seem so long, time seems to crawl especially at night. As each day comes and we arise from perhaps lack of good sleep, each moment can seem to be enormously hard.
When you commit yourself to another, you plan your life around them. You might think of ways to please another so many times. Thoughtful cards, tender words, and even just a glance or that smile we give one another makes life seem so pleasant.
When we lose what we have treasured for so long, it is as if we are lost. Unable to find our way forward anymore. There are no words to express our sorrow. But tears flow and as they do, you should realize as you remember, those thoughts, those tears as you wipe your eyes and blow your nose perhaps, are you crying out for the absence you now feel so much.
It is normal to cry all the time, to not understand why others don’t feel the same way, and even hate so many things, but that is normal and only time and your ability to face these emotions and open up about them will help you heal inside.
When we cry we cry and shed tears, not because we want to, but because we can’t help ourselves. When we get mad and get angry at so many things, it is because your body is releasing those safeguards we have in our everyday life.
That is what it takes to heal yourself inside, you need to open up, express yourself to others, this is one place where you will not be dismissed. People will listen. People will hear and understand your pain by your words.
In order to feel better inside, you have to trust yourself again. You have to take a chance and cry when you need to, express yourself how you are feeling and release those pent up emotions. Just remove those masks you wear and reveal your true self so others can help.
You have to learn to adapt to your new life. Accept what has happened, and realize that the only way forward is to face those emotions and walk forward with the help of others. You are no longer alone. You are among those who have also lost those they loved so dearly.
Take your time slowly. Open up. Talk when you can. Peace be with you tonight.
-david
This song if for you
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