loss of my wife Mary 20/3/2020

Discussion in 'Loss of Spouse' started by Louis, Jul 25, 2020.

  1. Louis

    Louis New Member

    My wife Mary died with ovarian cancer just 4 months ago we were married for 25 years I did everything to help her live but she past away in hospital my heart is so broken I am so lost and lonely, the loneliness is the worst thing I have ever experienced in my life, crazy thoughts enter my head and sometimes I think I'm glad that it is me that is left, I just wouldn't want my wife going through this loneliness and the grieving feelings that we suffer
     
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  2. edj9

    edj9 Well-Known Member

    I wish you had no reason to be here, but welcome, Louis, and thank you for sharing. You obviously love and care for Mary, and miss her terribly. 4 months is so recent. Please be kind to yourself and give yourself the space and permission to grieve. I hope posting here helps you work through your grief and lends you some sense of support and shared experience.
     
  3. Louis

    Louis New Member

    Thank you edi9 for the kind words I know that I will be on here for a while until I recover God only knows how long that will take for sure I will be talking to you again thank you so much regards Louis
     
  4. Michael beck

    Michael beck Well-Known Member

    First louis I an so sorry fir your loss..
    I just list my wife of 34 yrs to copd and cancer..
    She suffered so..
    I preyed to god to give me her pains and let her live and to take me instead
    But what you said helps me somewhat..
    I too qould not want her going through what i am rite now by missing her and grieving her loss..

    I would not want her to feel thus loneliness that i feel ..
    I miss my windy so so bad it hurts. So bad..
    But thank you for giving another perspective..i prey you have peace
     
  5. Louis

    Louis New Member

    Thank you Michael I hope your pain will subside as time go by
    I can understand what you are going through my friend but you have to be strong
    words you have hear so often I said a little prayer for you today Take care Michael God bless
    kind regards Louis
     
  6. Michael beck

    Michael beck Well-Known Member

    Thank you for the preyers..and the same to you.
    Ive gotten in the habit of saying a little preyer for all on here that have a similar story to ours.. So many lost..
    So many suffering with grief..
    But bamding together and talking about our lost loved ones really helps ..me..
    Thus is something my windy would have wanted me ti do..
    Gid bless you and your family