It’s been 1 year since my dad passed from cancer. Well more from complications due to a surgery for the cancer. So it was unexpected as the doctors were very sure it would cure him. It’s been 8 weeks since my mother passed away from pancreatic cancer. Also very unexpected, we went to visit her for memorial weekend and she was having pain. I asked her to see a dr before I went back home. She went to the ER alone due to covid. I have to mention she also had aphasia from a stroke 3 years prior. So she did not understand the horrors they were going to tell her. Alone. That part really kills me. She drove back to her house where I and my 4 children were waiting. She handed me the paperwork. Cancer was everywhere. I knew then it was the beginning of the end. We stayed with her the entire last 6 weeks of her life. She was only 60. We had so many plans but were waiting for the covid to be over. I’m just so heart broken and feel so alone. My spouse has no idea how to help.