I lost my husband of almost 20 years on April 5, 2021 he had stage IV lung cancer. He was only 50. We have 3 children 15,18 and 21. It has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. I'm only 44, and now I"m a widow. Life is not the same, and I am sad all the time. I cry everyday and just feel like things will never be good again. I no longer have my other half the one to pick me up when I was down, the one I could always count on. I have a hard time going to work. It's hard to focus and concentrate. I feel like a mess and feel like no one truly understands.