I Just Need Help

I am a widow and it's been 2yrs seems like yesterday. I have 5 kids. My younger kids weren't making it to school so my parents took the younger kids bc that was the only way I could make sure that they get to school. My older children tried to get the younger ones to school but once they did they were at the nurses office. Anyway I had planned to try to move out with my parents to get our own place in the same town. My mother assured me that there were some. I hadn't found work yet. Then in March I fell and broke my knee. I lost my job and couldn't afford my rent in the town anymore. Now I am in the middle of the desert no job, no place of my own, and living with my parents. I have survivor benefits and I am buried in debt. I love my parents but visiting is one thing living with them is another. They make me want to just give up. I am just getting beat up mentally bc they want me to contribute and I try then they say no. I give them money it's never enough. They want me here but they don't. I understand I am trying to get out. There's no rentals here and in the next town. Just as I saved enough to get a place medical bills took that away. I just can't win. I'm not healthy enough yet to go work 2 jobs and can't take the only parent away from them. They need more than money. I am just living on prayers. I just need miracles.