How do I live without my husband

TLD: I can relate so much to how you are feeling, especially since your loss is so new. I remember those feelings so well and thinking and praying it was all a bad dream. Your heart just hurts so much. I understand. I know I had to keep reminding myself to take things an hour at a time, a day at a time, etc. I went to grief counseling for many months. It helped to be able to express my feelings and get through that first year.

 

That's all i have been trying to do. My friends and family have been great trying to bring me comfort. But it will never bring him back. Mine is a very complicated situation too. I saw him two days before he passed away and i do not get the opportunity to say goodbye for the last time.

 

How do we live with out our love of our lives...that is a good question. I have no answer I wish I did. If I did I could continue walking through life, that is so hard to do

 

I am new to this, I have been wandering around in a fog and know I need someone who understands. I lost my husband of 40 years to a pulmonary embolism four months ago yesterday. It feels like just yesterday. We were high school sweethearts and best friends for several years before dating. I trying married my very best friend. He was 60 when he passed. His family lives less than an hour away and I haven’t heard from any of them since his passing except his brother last week and his sister the first week following. I have three daughters but I don’t feel I can express my grief with them, they loss their daddy. I feel so alone. I am trying to take care of all the business but I am stumbling with decisions. This is such a surprise to me I handled all the business prior to his passing. I am so scared, sleep is hard, I have bad dreams and restless sleep. I keep asking why the day he died he worked until noon, came home for a nap, at 5 he came to me and said he was having trouble breathing, we went to the ER and a few hours later the doctors came and told me he passed. I still am in shock! I go to the cemetery and sit for hours I know he isn’t there I know he is in heaven but I feel some comfort there. I am scared. I don’t know what to do. I need someone who can talk to me and share their story. I am sorry I wrote a book, I had a lot to say I guess. Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read and respond

 

I just lost my wife also 48 To young I was in disbelief and don't know how to overcome my loss people don't understand. They offer to help me but there is nothing can help