So my dad died in April, and I found out my fiancée was pregnant a few days later. I thought she was gonna be a good coping partner but me being sad always leads to a fight. For example on my birthday which was the first once since my dad died she got so angry she couldn’t cheer me up she ended up breaking up with me and leaving. I have done my best to hide my emotions for the sake of my unborn son but it’s gotten to the point where I feel completely alone with my emotions and like I should be better already. Pregnancy turned her into a unpleasant person almost all the time and her dramatic reactions to my problems is breaking me. She blacks out when she’s angry but her hateful words like “your always just sad about your dad” have broken my ability to express anything about my dad and I feel locked in a numb emotionless state, when I usually am the most fun wacky dude everyone wants to hang out with. I’ve isolated myself so much I don’t even feel safe going outside, not to mention insomnia and I even tried drugs to make me feel better. I have no support system at home till this baby comes. pleae if you want to chat send me a message, I need it.