Thank you Christine for your response. It is so appreciated! I know I am not the first to go through this, nor will I be the last, and I try to find some comfort in that thought. However, comfort seems to be avoiding me. Louie was my bestest friend, lover, confidant, my safe place, my everything! We did most everything together. It was the second go around for us and we felt we finally got it right. We would have been married only 11 short years on October 18th and together for a total of 14 years. It just was not long enough. I also had hoped to go before him or at least go together. God has other plans. I feel when Louie took his last breath, I did also. I just so bad want to be with him and I know it is not to be. I can't even begin to imagine my life two years from now. Louie told a neighbor that he was married to a "strong woman". I wish I was. Our strength is definately being tested isn't it? Again thank you for reaching out to me! So very nice to hear from you and for you to share your thoughts with me. Hope to hear from you again. God bless
Hi again Cindi
Sometimes life just doesn’t make sense, How can it it be that one minuet everything is good in your life, and the next minuet it’s all taken away from you, like you and many others on this site My husband was my Soulmate, my best friend, my world so when his life was over so Too was a big part of mine, I know it seems I keep repeating myself
but that’s how I feel every minuet of everyday, Yes I do have many great friends two lovely adult children and two
wonderful adult grandsons, But they all have there own lives to live So I cant expect them to always be around for me,
It’s just the loneliness I feel even when I am with friends or away somewhere on holiday or with my family, I am still So lonely, I just miss my George so much nothing will ever be the same and that’s just so hard to accept , he was such a vibrant person so full of life , always had a smile on his face and always had a positive attitude a very kind and caring man, I was blessed to have had him in my life for 50 yrs but that wasn’t enough
we still had a lot more living to do adventures to go on, But that’s not going to happen anymore, It’s easy for people to say but just think of all the memories you have, think of all the good times, and feel lucky you had such a great marriage, Yes I do think of all that but right now at this point in my life it just makes me feel sadder because I don’t have this wonderful person in my life anymore and I miss him with all my heart,
So I do understand what your going through Cindi and too anyone else out there who is reading this message (Robin, David, Paul)??
Thank you
Christine
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