Thank you George!!! Just what I needed today. Some of George’s creations! Beautiful!! Valerie would be proud of the effort you’re putting in. And how much you support everyone with your talent.
Heartfelt words Robin, I got teary-eyed reading your post, you said so many things that go through my mind every single second of each day. I feel your pain, I know what you mean about triggers that set us off, pictures music, and stupid as I am, I went and watched our wedding videos the other week, leaving me even more traumatized! Even just every day events, like yesterday morning, at the butcher's counter in a supermarket, I saw these giant beef steaks on display and I nearly broke down, I would have bought one of those for my C, he loved grilled /barbecue meat dishes (Sorry if there are any vegetarians here)! I really struggled to hold back the tears, I couldn't wait to get out of there. The 15th Nov 2020, 4.30pm is the day my life stood still, leaving me with just an existence. People who haven't been through this, just don't realise that "time" means nothing to us. We actually miss our soulmates more and more as time goes by, it's been too long without them, our feelings don't change, our human survival instinct gives us the strength to go on. I see the image of my C's gorgeous face in front of me all the time, even as I'm writing to you now. You're so right, we are all lucky to have found each other, your support and understanding means so much to me. Rose
Thanks Karen, I'm actually worried about having a face to face, instant "informal" English conversation, I already know it will end up being bilingual, but luckily she also speaks Italian anyway. Rose Rose
George, I've read this poem many times since you posted it. Every time I read it, it gets me to do some serious thinking... LOVE it!!! You are a very creative and gifted artist!!! TGW are very lucky that you share your thought provoking and beautiful creations with us. I understand if you don't want to keep the "Poetry Korner" going, but, and this is the first very BIG!!! BUT!!! for the day, if at any time, you feel ready to share more of your poems, I think I can safely say that it will make all of TGW days or "daze" (hope you don't mind I borrowed this one from you!!!), depending on where on that roller coaster of life each of us is at the moment, a little bit brighter, TUTTAM!!! As always, sending you lots of hugs and love, all the way from TUTTAMVILLE Debanator & Skye Beast
Karen, You just gave me an lol moment... A zillion thanks!!! Lots of hugs and love to you and The Wink, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB & Skye Queen
Rose, I'm slightly comatose this morning. I didn't get enough zzz's last night, and that caffeine kick, hasn't kicked in... As a result, I'm not sure if because of the time difference, whether or not your lunch has already happened, if not enjoy to the absolute max!!!, and if it's history, I hope you had lots of fun. Thank you so much for sharing some happy news with us!!!, TUTTAM!!! If you feel like sharing, I would love to hear about it. As always, sending you lots of hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB & Skye Captain (Variety is the spice of life, TUTTAM!!!)
George, As always, thanks for sharing, for the smiles... Love it!!! Keep on creating... Keep on keeping... Lots of hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace, all the way from TUTTAMVILLE... DEB & Skye Captain
Rose, everything you said resonates with me also. The fact that we’re all missing our other half more as time goes by and everyone in our lives thinks we should be ok is hurtful. But they don’t know how devastating this is. Wow! I can’t believe you watched your wedding video. But I do kind of get it. You miss C that much. It’s kind of like a visit. But excruciatingly hard too. I understand. Every day things such as you mention at the butchers counter, those things are as hard as big events. Many times harder. Walmart is a huge trigger for me. Going to the mechanic too. And I was just starting to be ok to call and set things up and he recently retired. We did business with him, so I knew him. Now I need a new place and my car needs an oil change and inspection by the end of the month. I’m seeing that you lost your C 2 days before I was at the 3 year mark. I know I was an emotional mess as I approached the 17th and you were paralyzed and in dire straights with such a sudden loss. I know exactly how you felt. Same sudden loss from the same cause with no previous health issues. Changing things up a bit. I hope your lunch with your cousin went well and you had a beautiful reunion. I don’t even want to think about this life without the support of you and everyone else on here. Where would I be. I don’t know but it wouldn’t be good. Robin
Deb, Robin, and all my friends, yesterday was one of the best days I've had for the last three years, it was such a wonderful, joyful reunion, but always with that underlying sadness, heartache inside, which you all understand. Like Robin's perfect word "bittersweet". We hugged and cried when we first met (obviously, I was the one who broke down first, then started her off!), it was like a dream come true. We spent the whole day together, my parents were here too (she's my dad's niece), it was a big family reunion, just like the scene of a film, BUT the best part (my C, the 'soul of the party') was missing, I felt that emptiness so much. Towards the end of the day, not in my children's presence, we did talk about my C, and unlike other people, she didn't say the usual "time heals" and "you must move on", and so on. She really understood and supported me, I felt comfortable pouring my heart out to her,she's such a good listener. She and her husband couldn't have children, but she remembers supporting her boyfriend (now, her husband) when, at only 21, he suddenly lost his dad just like my kids lost theirs, and she said to him, honestly, sincerely : "I'm not going to say I know how you feel, that I understand, because I don't, I can't, I haven't been through it". The way she supported him during those difficult first months drew them even closer together, their love stronger than ever. I think these are the words we find more comforting than just the usual ones we have all heard. I felt so relieved to be able to actually to talk to someone about my innermost feelings, she would make a great therapist, she actually does work in the consultancy sector of a big company, dealing with workers' emotional problems. For the first time in years, I spoke English for over nine hours non-stop, I did have some hesitations, couldn't think of the right words, stuttered a little, but it was better than I thought it would be. We could have gone on talking all night. Deb, you've just sent some shorter posts, well, if I don't stop now, I may be taking your place in your "long books", like Lou calls them, which, may I say, we all appreciate, love and take inspiration and comfort from! Robin, I relate to you about your mechanic retiring, not knowing who to call now, I've had many changes to. In the last three years, our family doctor (who was also a friend of my C) has retired, our pharmacy (the pharmacist also knew my C very well) has closed and moved to a different town, other trusted people that I can't remember now have also 'disappeared' in one way or another. As if life wasn't difficult enough!! Thank you to everyone as always, for being here. Rose
Robin, Thanks for the lol moment!!!, TUTTAM!!! Great minds think alike, lol... I've been wondering what alien creature is now living rent free inside my brain... Hope your morning is off to the best start possible, in this over the top!!!, bittersweet world, we've been thrown into. As always, sending you, Teddy and Slinky, lots of hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB & Skye
I’m so glad it brought you a smile. That’s what I was going for. Well I knocked over my cup of tea first thing this morning. Hoping things go up from there. I hope you have a good day Deb, Skye too. Robin
