Patti,
I wish so much I could wrap my arms around you, give you the biggest hug ever... To date, I haven't had to experience the pain of a close friend suffering a stroke and the complications that can go hand and hand after this tragic event. My heart goes out to you..., to Scarlett..., to her family, and all of her friends... I will pray for Scarlett... I will pray for all of you at this very sad and difficult time.
I am also so sorry to hear that an auto accident took the life of one of your long time friends... I HATE!!! saying I'm sorry... Words seem so shallow at times, but since words are all I have, I hope you know how deeply sorry I am. Patti, you have been through so much..., you have way too much on your plate for any one person to handle. I am saying extra prayers for you, for God to give you the strength you need to cope with these very sad events. I believe that there is strength in numbers... I know collectively, all of our prayers are being heard.
Backing up a bit, I hope you are feeling much better physically. I'm glad to hear you are taking the best care of yourself you possibly can. I understand not wanting to go to an ER as they are filled to the max. There is no way you want to leave an ER with something "extra!!!." TU!!! However, if you continue to feel sick, please consider calling your primary care physician. Maybe she/he can schedule a video visit. I know this is far from ideal, but I had to have a video appointment during COVID when it was impossible to book an office appointment. My primary care doctor was able to prescribe an antibiotic to get rid of a very nasty sinus infection. Backing up just a bit, I'm very technically challenged!!!, TU!!!, and all I had to do was click on a link the scheduling department provided when it was time for my visit. It was simple, even for me.
I'm so glad all of us, by sharing so many of our experiences of the very worst moments in our lives, with no "sugar coating!!!," have made you feel comfortable enough to share some of the very worst moments in your life with us. I think this is the "magic" of a support group when it works the way it's intended to. It's amazing how all of TGW, so different in so many ways, have been able to come together, united by the death of the one true love of our lives, provide support, friendship and love to each other, in ways that only those of us who are part of this group can understand. I'm so glad GIC has become a safe place for you to "visit," just as it's become a safe place for me, for all of TGW to "visit." As Lou said in a previous post, "GIC is not complete without your presence." We love you!!!, TU!!!
I hope that when you're ready, if you want/need to, you will feel comfortable enough to share the horrible experiences you had with hospice. It is truly disgraceful!!!, TU!!! (I'm speechless... I can't find a strong enough word to use!!!, TU!!!). It is way beyond difficult to imagine, calling in hospice, in what can be a very difficult and heartbreaking decision to have to make in the first place, only to have hospice providers who didn't provide the quality care and support Jack and you needed, during the most horrific and sad moments of your lives... the reason why hospices exist... !!! I could go on and on and on, definitely outlasting that "Energizer Bunny," but will get off of my soapbox before I really begin to get going. Just one last comment on this!!!, I promise. Sadly, from my experiences, this state provides the worst quality health care out of anywhere I've lived, and far worse than in states that I haven't lived in too, from hearing about friends' experiences dealing with health care where they live. This is one of the many reasons, when I'm ready, I'll probably move.
You are going through such a difficult time, and on top of this, today is February 14th. Valentine's Day is very difficult me, for so many of us, but for you, this pain and sadness must be magnified by a zillion times... Please be extra gentle with yourself today. Know that we're here if you need us, but and this is another one of those really BIG BUTS!!!, if you're not able to "talk," it's okay!!!
As always, sending you and JayCee lots of hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB
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