Hi, my name is Sarah... and my life was turned upside down on October 13th, 2003 when I learned my mother had passed away... I was 8 years old.. Having no one to lean on (because everything moved so fast after her passing) I never learned how to process death in a positive light. My father was sentenced to prison less than 6 months after my mother died... So my paternal grandparents took guardianship over my brother (3), sister (6) and myself (9). My grandparents didnt know what they were in for. My siblings and I acted out because we had no idea what was going on.. little did we know that the judge demanded my father have no contact with us when he was in prison... Less than 5 years after my mothers passing, on April 21st, 2008... my dad died... I saw his dead body... it still haunts me. Things never got better... my grandparents pushed us away emotionally, we had zero emotional support and felt alone.. I've never had anyone to talk to about loss before. I'm now 24 years old and I still feel the same pain as I did as a 13 year old... My emotions can not be pent up anymore because it could lead to my death. I'm scared.. and I just miss my mom and dad. I'm left in the dark without answers to a million questions. I'm going to lose it.