Wednesday ART THERAPY

What a dear lady, loved the way she just expressed feelings in such simple language, related particularly to her "Where are you?" poem, I repeat that question over over and over again,every day.

 

Dear Robin, Karen, Bernadine, reading your posts nearly made me cry, I relate to all your car problems, it's so tough handlimg all this maintenance alone, and it seems these repairs have suddenly sprung up all at once right now, when we we've been left alone. I have no brothers or sisters, my parents and in laws are in their late 80s and live far away, can't possibly expect them to help. Luckily I have my two grownup kids living with me, we do find ourselves being able to do odd jobs and repairs only because their dad had taught us how to, but we sadly have our limits. Had to call the blacksmith to fix our front yard gate yet again, something my C used to do himself. I managed to repaint all the railings myself though, took me three weeks, two tins of paint, but I made it! I feel so useless when I open his toolshed, looking at all his precious tools, butnot knowing how to use them or just not having the physical strength to do so, like using his heavyweight chainsaw to cut logs for firewood. Had to call our friend handyman who lives nearby to take care of all that in the Spring,and cutting all the grass on our property which my C used to do with his tractor, and so much more. I want to scream when I say all this. I still have his car outside in our back yard, don't have the courage to sell it, I can't even go inside it yet, my daughter has been letting the engine run about once a week, but the other day, she was so upset in letting me know that the battery hadn't made it. I had to hold back the tears.
Robin, hope your muscle strain isn't too serious.
Wishing you all a peaceful, less hectic day.
Rose.

 

Dear Helena, I hope your meeting with your support group went well.
Looking forward to hearing from you.
Rose.

 

Dear Rose, Yesterday for me the day was full of anxiety, first of all I leave the house only once a month for my grocery shopping, It took me long time in finding the place where the support meeting was, I got lost, finally I arrived they were waiting for me, a very small meeting three widows including myself. It was this lady that she lost her husband, daughter and her home, that made cry I felt so sorry for this helpless person. I think other people are worst than we are, I got very emotional so many tears and tissues and we have to continue....we are OK!!! I am without Geoff and you Rose without your C, but we are OK. I'm so glad that we found GIC where every body is so nice and understanding and now we can talk here about our feelings or our daily life. Always Rose thanks for listening. Helena

 

George, Yesterday I couldn't share Wednesday Art, if you have any pastels to share let me know and I'll post one of my old draWInks. Hope U feel a bit better.

 

See if I can put one up here... Thanks! This is digital art a digital painting I did last week.

 

Sounds like a heavy experience, thanks for sharing!

 

As usual I had to reduce the size of the picture.

 

That's different! I see the city looking from a screened window, very good!

 

Hi Helena, thank you for your post. I understand how emotional it must have been for you meeting other widows face to face, and like you said that poor lady who has gone through so much grief. I think it was good for you letting yourself go and crying with them, we do need to release all this pain, otherwise we will just explode. I am unfortunately the kind of person who represses feelings, afraid to face them, because they are just too painful, I compare myself to a pressure-cooker exploding, because the steam valve is all blocked up.
I'm glad we've all found each other too,mornings are the worst, waking up without my beloved beside me so checking in here gives me so much comfort,helps me start my day.
Wishing you a peaceful day, Helena.
Rose.

 

Dear Rose, As always it's very nice to see your reply. Somedays I managed to sleep for at least three hours, I need to sleep more but this helps me to at least start another day. Also here in the south gets very hot in July/August, these months are the worst for me, I have to run the air conditioning all the time, if it doesn't rain I have to water the plants, and is a large area with some ornamental grass and many trees, I call these my private forest, lately I have neglected to take care, it's overwhelming on my own!. As soon comes the fall I'll need to call outside help that it's very costly, so many things to take care on our own.
In the past I have mentioned that I do meditation and it helps me in this horrible grieving trip, For some reason we all are here expressing our emotions it helps us in our heeling and nobody judge us. When Geoff died I was in deny, after a a few days I realized he is not here, he is not coming back. I'm agnostic don't have any religion or faith, many times I have tried to think that there is some force or energy, whatever it is HERE WE ARE talking to each other so many miles apart and I'm very glad to have met you through this site. Also whishing you a super peaceful day. Helena

 

George, if I may, I see your drawing describing what a cyber terroist looks like in water colors. Nice. Gary

 

This is my art contribution to TGW. 14 months ago in the heart center when I knew Cheryl was getting ready to embark on her journey towards the afterlife. I saw in my mind a timeless blowing wind tearing all of Cheryl’s flowers away. It seemed like The wind stopped 10 years later and I was near death. I decided not to let that happen and honored my beloved Cheerful Cheryl by tending her flowers. It has paid me back 10 fold. Gary

 

Beautiful, Gary.
I love the statuary tucked in. I’m certain Cheryl is pleased. ~B

 

Just some thoughts, hope all the Warriors are having a peaceful day.

What do I want?
I want each of us to feel so lit up by the things we create and share, by the art we make, the threads we send to friends, the meals we cook and the walks we take. I want us to feel ignited by our own creations. I want us to spend time connecting to nature, to art, to the food we're eating and the sounds we're hearing and the people we're in relationship your partners, your friends, your companions. I want us to feel proud of the things we make with our hands and hearts and brains. I want us to move from our own center instead of from the collective urgency we so often forget isn't actually our pace. I want us to listen to our inner knowing before we turn outward to see who we should be emulating. I want us to trust our voices, to trust our intuitive callings, to trust that what we have to offer just by showing up as our fully human selves is more than enough - it's magnificent. I want us to actually rest when we need rest, I want us to slow down when we need to slow down, without feeling like we will fall behind or miss our on something important or become smaller. I want us to have enough spaciousness feel the ground beneath us, the breath inside of us.

I want us to stop looking for ways to prove we are only human and us to let ourselves be only human. I want us to hug longer, stay longer, hope longer. I want us to let go of what's unnecessarily heavy so we can be with the heaviness we can't let go of. I wan us to envision a world full of deep compassion, a world where power in isn't the most important thing, a world where we are trusted to make our own choices, a world where love is at the center of everything so there is no reason to even question ulterior motives. I want us to believe in what else could be possible.

I want creativity to look like truth, I want self-expression to feel like a layer of gunk is being removed from my inner world. I want to not need to stay the same, to be less afraid of showing up differently. I want small to be significant, small to be satiating, small to be everything.

Whishing all the warriors wherever they are a very peaceful and joyful July 4th 2022!!1

Helena

 

Thank you, Helena. Inspiring and comforting words.
Rose

 

Thank you Helena. You have become radiant! Gary

 

Thank you Gary! But Radiant I'm far from it, thanks anyway I appreciate you reading my thread. Helena

 

Because…
Tomorrow is our Art Therapy day, if there’s trouble with your piece being too large here are some tricks you may not have tried.

On your device; phone, tablet, etc. :
Save the file at 20-40% size before attempting the upload.

On GIC:
When you upload a file there are a couple of options.
First, click on “actual size” after you’ve selected your photo. It will give you the option to go smaller.
Then you have the option to insert full size or thumbnail.

Hope this may be of assistance.
Can’t wait to see your works!
~B