Wednesday ART THERAPY

Thank you for your comment, Patti.
Bless you too.

 

Karen,

Soon after Bob's death, I was in the grocery store and saw a guy about the same height as Bob, who resembled him, wearing one of Bob's very favorite Hawaiian shirts, one he always took on cruise vacations. It's a good thing I was shopping incognito, wearing sunglasses... I couldn't stop the tears... It SUCKED!!! then, still SUCKS!!!, TUTTAM!!!, SCFED!!!, just to spice things up a bit.

I've been MIA for what seems like forever... As usual, I'm not reading messages in any particular order, makes responding a bit more challenging, lol...

I hope you're doing okay, able to kick the F*CK!!! out of Mr. Grief, not letting him invade entire days...

As always, sending you lots of hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

George,

I smiled when I read this... Keep on kicking the F*CK!!! out of Mr. Grief!!! It SUCKS!!!, but sadly, this is our new "normal..." All you can do, any of us can do, is to keep on keeping (compliments of Gary, in what seems like ages ago)...

You CAN!!! do this!!! Remember: You ARE!!! TUGW!!!

As always, you and all of TGW, our GIC "family,"are in my daily prayers...

Sending you lots of hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

Bernadine,

Getting here a little late, but I have to tell you how much I enjoyed seeing your garden... It's so pretty... A perfect place to enjoy some sunshine, fresh air, and hang out with Maggie.

Thanks for the smiles... The one thing we can NEVER!!! get enough of!!!, TUTTAM!!!

I hope you and Maggie are enjoying the day.... Winning more battles than you're losing against Mr. Grief. I HATE!!! how over the top bittersweet life is, but and this is another one of those really BIG!!! BUTS!!!, I'll take bittersweet over the alternative any day!!!, SCFED!!! (To spice things up a bit.)

As always, sending you and Maggie lots of hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

Rose,

I'm in love!!! with your cactus... This is the most beautiful one I've ever seen. Thanks for sharing and for the smiles...

As always, sending you lots of hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

George, Bernadine, Helena and Rose,

Getting here late, but want to thank you for making my Sunday a little brighter... LOVE!!! Art Wednesdays!!!, TUTTAM!!!, SCFED!!!

As always, sending you lots of hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

And that image of the guy who looked like Jack is imbedded in my brain. Isn't it funny how things happen? The guy wearing Bob's shirt, hum! makes you wonder or makes you miss our special guys more.
Mr. Grief has returned, again, constantly since my cat, Rambo died. Just another trial to move through. I hope you are doing okay and keeping Mr. G away as much as possible.K

 

George,

I know what you mean about finding it hard to concentrate and articulate thoughts on paper. It SUCKS!!! It's been over 14 months since Bob died, and I'm still having trouble expressing my feelings in words, something that used to be so easy for me to do, something I used to enjoy... I keep hoping my creativity will return, waiting for the day, when words will flow seamlessly from my mind to my fingers, just like it always was, until it wasn't.

As always, sending you lots of hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. The DEB

 

Karen,

As always, it's so nice to hear from you, but wish you had better news to share. I can't even begin to imagine how difficult it must be for you, without Rambo by your side... It SUCKS!!! I believe there's a special place in heaven for fur babies... I like/have to believe Rambo and Jack are together again... Wrapping you in a GIANT!!! virtual hug...

Everything just feels so wrong without Bob here, but, and this is another one of those really BIG!!! BUTS!!!, in general I'm doing okay. I'm continuing to have more happy moments than sad ones. I'm able to cry as long and as hard as I need to, but unlike last year, this year once I've cried until I can't cry anymore, I'm able to kick the F*CK!!! out of Mr. Grief, and make the very best I possibly can out of the rest of the day. It SUCKS!!!, but sadly this is my "new" reality, and I have to get used to it. I don't have a choice. Sometimes I wonder if I'm really healing, or if I'm just getting used to living alone, and feeling so lonely, without Bob (physically) with me. It SUCKS!!! As usual, I seem to be stuck on SUCKS!!!

On a much happier note, I'm picking my youngest son up at the airport on Tuesday afternoon. He's going to be here from the 28th until the 4th. I can't wait to see him!!!, TUTTAM!!! I still can't go anywhere near the Island, but planned day trips to some fun places, and found some interesting restaurants for us to try. My son and I are going to spend one day with my friend who lives a couple blocks away from me, and her dog, my very favorite fur baby. If Mother Nature is in a good mood, the four of us are going to do some hiking. That night, the three of us are going to go out for dinner at a fun Mexican restaurant, known for it's pizza, lol... My friend and I had dinner there last month. We decided to be brave, check out the pizza. We were surprised by how good it was, some of the best in the area. It's the only place I know where the server brings chips and salsa ,while waiting for your pizza, lol...

Sending lots more hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

I've never heard of a Mexican restaurant serving pizza, sound interesting as does your visit with your son and friend. You are moving through your loss quite well. I think you are ahead of me, 19 months for me now. But, we all move in different ways and times.
I do agree the first year is probably the worst, then it moves on to a new dimension of grieving. Wishing you the best always, K

 

Karen,

I know I wouldn't be doing as well as I am without you, TGW, our GIC "family," plus my friend who is also a widow. While I love our GIC "family," having a friend who lives near me, who I have so much in common with, is truly a gift. As I've said so many times in the past, both of us believe we were meant to meet. We met for the first time, about two years ago. Since then, she has become one of my very closest friends. I wish so very much you, and every one of TGW, had a friend like her.

I wish you were farther along in this miserable journey, for lack of a better word, but like you said, the time line is different for every one of us. I like how you expressed the second year, it truly is a new dimension of grieving. It SUCKS!!! I wonder how many more dimensions of grieving are ahead of us... No matter what, we CAN!!! and WILL!!! get through this together, and with the help of our GIC "family."

Sending you lots more hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

Talking about Mr. G came, this time almost left me paralyzed...Geoff is gone and I am here with all the memories, at least that will stay with me for the rest of my existence, it's a good thing Jack is imbedded in your brain but you can look another guy that's is OK too! lol. Helena

 

Thank you for your kind words Deb, hoping you have a peaceful day.
Rose.

 

Hi Karen, I can just imagine how you felt when you saw that guy dressed just like your beloved. Lately, it's been so hurtful when I happen to be driving into town and I see so many motorbikes passing by, now we're having this hot summer weather. There was one biker yesterday right behind me, having to slow down because of traffic, I could see he was probably a 50/60 yr old, wearing same sort of clothes as my C, began thinking of all our summer days out together around our beautiful mountains and I burst out crying, thanking God I was in the car alone behind my sunglasses and nobody could see or hear me.
Wishing you a peaceful day.
Rose.

 

Rose, its me again, I just can't sleep and saw your message to Karen. Since Geoff died I only leave my house once a month to go grocery shopping, sometimes I think that I'm becoming a hermit...lol. For the first time, next Wednesday I'll be attending a support group in my area and I'm not so sure how I'll react to their face to face talking with widows and widowers that I don't know. At least in GIC I know that no body judge us, to me it's the best thing I have my friends supporting each other, thanks for listening Rose and please take care of yourself, thinking about you my friend. Helena

 

Hello Helena, how good to hear from you. I'm sorry you couldn't sleep, I hope you managed to get a decent night's sleep in the end. Strangely, I slept about six or seven hours last night, only because I took some anxiety med, though.
We've been having very humid sweltering summer days here, 36 Celsius today (about 100 Fahrenheit, I believe),, and rising. It is an advantage living amongst the hills in the country, the air is cleaner and more 'breathable', although we can only stay outdoors mornings and evenings. I get so sad thinking about how my C and I used to escape these unbearable scorching afternoons, by going for motorbike rides up on our mountains, reaching the highest point of 1.000 meters, where the air is so pure, enjoying the feeling of fresh mountain air on our skin. This time two years ago, that's where we were. Better stop now, getting too emotional.
I hope your meeting with your support group goes well. I am also glad I have found you all here, I've only been here a while but you've all made me feel so comfortable and at ease, that I feel I've known you all for years.
A big hug to you.
Rose

 

Dear Rose, So glad to hear from you, reading your thread makes me traveling to Italy. I visited Italy and drove from
Siena to Milan, Bologna and Venice, it was a real nice trip only the girls my older sister and my niece, we treated ourselves just the women, sometimes that way it's also enjoyable. Geoff and I also enjoyed riding our Suzuki motorcycles, thank you for mentioning your memories with C, I almost forgot our earlier days when we didn't care and took advantage being young and crazy, there are wonderful bittersweet memories, I'm so glad you are sharing those memories. Take care of yourself my dear friend, sending a big hug and lots of peace. Helena

 

Rose,

No words of advice, just sending you the BIGGEST!!! cyber hug... It SUCKS!!!

Triggers are everywhere and pop up sometimes when you least expect them too, sort of like a twisted version of "Smile You're On Candid Camera," a reference Lou and I used to "talk" about. Just in case you haven't heard of it, this used to be a popular TV show in the US. People would do something outrageous/ridiculous in a public place, while the reactions of the people around them were secretly being filmed. At the end, Allen Funt?/his son? told everyone to "Smile, you're on candid camera."

I'm glad you were able to sleep for 6 0r 7 hours, even if it was with the help of meds. Sleep deprivation just makes everything so much worse, so much harder to cope, making it easier for Mr. Grief to invade your day.

I hope you have at least one reason to LMSO today, but hopefully more than one...

Sending you lots more hugs, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

Thanks The DEB in these weird times I will take any encouragement with ultimate Love!