Very mixed feelings

Yes, that is what I have. My
Sofia told me in Dec. " If any
thing happens to me, you get
the house." was I in utter
shock? I don't know but I was
quite worried. I knew I did not
want the house if my dearness
was not living in it.

I think that me being in ICU for
4 weeks and Sofia being alone
so much in the evenings did a
very bad job on her nerves. That
I think and her much loved cat
who liked me a lot cuz I had a
beard was dying and had the
most sad meeeow. Then a bad
thing happened to my leg and
I had to go to rehab so I could
work on walking again. So 2
more weeks of Sofia alone at
nights. . . no with so much
regret I wish I never went in
to get my throat fixed. I had a
pocket in the back of it and was
told it was a dangerous thing
that just had to be fixed.

It just seems that Sept.24 last
was the beginning of the end
in some ways.throat got fixed
and very well. As to what had
happened to my right leg, the
whole leg and neuropathy with
lot of strength gone and Sofia
dying 8 days before the end of
half a year. . . I just don't know
what to think