Unbearable pain

The pain and loneliness are unbearable. I cannot believe that Marshall, my husband of 40 years is really gone. Wave after wave of grief rush over me and I feel like I am drowning in it. The only one who could comfort me is Marshall with his sense of humor and empathy, but he will never return to do so. I cannot bear that I will never see him on earth again. I wish he would send me a sign that he is okay and forgives me for times that I wasn't kind. I need a redo and none exist in this world. I am nothing without him, but must go on for our son, who will be leaving in the Fall for College.

How does anyone stand this agony?

 

my loving wife of 46 years recently passed away. We married right out of high school. the grief you speak of is the love you had for him. For me the calls I got just relived that grief over and over again. Then I realize something. They were grieving too. I need that for me to heal, as best I can.

 

I am so sorry for your lose and understand the grief. I hope that some type of healing does come with time, but for now waves of grief keeping hitting me with little let up.

 

Thank you. Just like you, I miss her everyday. But my family needs me to be strong. God bless you and your family.