Sudden loss of my Fiance

I woke up to him (my Fiance) passed away beside me in the morning.
I remember, I had playfully laughed about how quiet he was as I turned to face him in our bed. ( he always snored) His hand was reached out to my back and he was cold and so deafening silent. I'm not sure how long I was in shock (I just stared at his face and rubbed his chest) I never saw it coming. I couldn't get a grasp on what I was dealing with. My brain couldn't register what I was seeing and not believing. I can't even remember who I called first.... We were just laughing and watching Alabama's loss of the game just a few hrs before. Even with his sadness of the loss, We still ended up having a fun night. We were happy and laughing and even singling karaoke before going home. We went right to bed after getting home. Said "I love you" and we went to sleep.
Upon waking up, He was just so quiet, still and definite. I'm still dealing with the shock. My life literally stopped, flipped upside down and became completely misplaced. I lost him and I lost our home a few days later. Our beautiful home that his kids were so eager to take and sell... even my own personal items while I was basically numb ( comatose) while this hurricane came through our home to collect. I know bitterness is worse for my healing but, I can't help feeling how I feel. It was a double heartbreak to see how people show who they truly are during these unimaginable times.
I'm not sure what else to say or knowing if I'm doing this right. Ive never been on one of these chats before. Im just tired of my family checking in on me all the time and I won't burden or bother them with what I am feeling from day to day. I just say " I'm FINE"
I suppose a group grief chat room might be better than hiring a fresh out of college kid to hear my life problems that they have no idea how to relate to.
So here I am just reaching out to anyone who wants to listen, communicate and share. I'm alone in this!!
Its a very scary chapter in my life to start all over without my guy by my side. he always made sure my heart was safe.

Anyways, that's about all I have right now. Looking forward to chatting and maybe even getting some better advice on how to deal with particular triggers and things while I try to start over in my life.

Looking forward to hearing from anyone who would like to chat and discuss anything.

Thanks,
Ren ;-)