You sound so much better, in spite of the
terrible circumstances of mourning for
Ron, Robin. I'm so proud of you, and happy that you came on here to speak with your
friends, TGW. Thank you for sharing the
details of your day and evening. I was
hoping you would. I'll try to do the same
after the Shack on Friday night and the
coffee with veterans on Sat am at the
American Legion. When you said Ron
liked Hacksaw Ridge, I thought you
meant Heartbreak Ridge, 1986, with
Clint Eastwood , as a tough Korean War
veteran. Linda & I saw that, bc we liked
his movies.We did not see Hackshaw
Ridge, 2016, about a pacifist in WWII. Hope you enjoy the evening. Tomorrow is a new day.I hope to feel that way on Sat. Lou[/QUOTE
Thank you Lou, I knew I’d feel better once I got
Through yesterday. It’s like my mind goes crazy thinking the worst. I suppose because the worst did happen on 11/17. All I know is as the day progressed I was feeling better and better snd remembering Ron, with sadness but trying not to go down the path of 3 years ago what we were doing etc. I did go down
that path at 9:30 when he started not feeling well and 11:34. When he passed. I had A little reliving of my daughter screaming and me numb and begging the dr to keep trying. Telling him how much I need him, and the doctor talking to my son in Florida on speaker phone to convey the situation properly. But I didn’t stay in that mode too long. I’m now breathing a sigh of relief. It might be hard to understand but I do feel relief and pretty good about how the day went.
FYI, we’re Clint Eastwood fans and enjoy Heartbreak Ridge too. But Ron doesn’t own that one.
I know your 3 year anniversary of Linda passing is tomorrow. I know you have plans with friends for dinner.
Lou I wrote this yesterday and I never posted it. I hope you have a good day and a nice dinner with your friends. You’re in my thoughts.
I had signed up already for the daily emails. I don’t get them. Checked my spam too. Frustrating to say the least.
Gary,
I’m sure you close to right on how many I love you’s I’ve said to Ron in the 3 years since he passed. Maybe more. I miss him so much. But I also think he’s helping me get stronger each day. I channel him and I know his thoughts and what he’d be staying to me and that helps.
The dream you mentioned, I had a dream similar to that sometime in the first 6 months I think. I took it to mean that my mind can’t wrap around him being gone so he was leaving me. You’ll have more dreams, I hope they happen soon. Other then the dream where Rons leaving me, which would never happen in a million years. My other dreams are of Ron helping me or our family. And in many then he disappears. And sometimes there isn’t a dream but I wake up with a feeling. He told me where my lost credit card was, woke up and went out to my car and found it. It will happen for you.
I go through times where I’m at a loss for words too. It happens to us all. Wishing you a better day each day. Sending hugs. Robin
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