I lost my first husband to cancer in 2009. I met someone special in 2010 but lost him to cancer in 2017. I’ve been a partner, wife, caregiver & a widow. I know I’ll never be the same again and some of that is sad but some of that is also good. My concern is who I will be when I decide it’s ok to go back out into the world...if I ever do. It’s a struggle between acceptance that I’ve already had the best & there’s nothing out there for me ... and trying to go on & maybe have one more “best friend” before I depart this life. How do you know which way to go?