I feel your grief in your words. Love is love and age does not matter when we love a person. I am glad it helps you knowing he lived a good life, although with someone else. I am sure he thought of you many times and remembered the love you had for each other with tenderness. It's shocking to grieve so deeply, someone we haven't seen in decades but I certainly understand. My grief at the death of my special friend was compounded with the fact he was so despondent that he committed suicide. There are so many regrets but my biggest one is not getting to tell him what an awesome man he was and that I did love him. I have found, grief doesn't go away. It stays but becomes softer.