Thanks so much Sue, and it good knowing there are others who are going through the same thing I am. I don't wish this pain on anyone but it is nice not to feel quite so alone in my experience. We each can only do our best to honor our person in a way that is meaningful and special to us. It is strange how emotions work and the way they come and go on a daily basis as we learn to cope with our loss. I was having such a rough time last week and there were days I cried nonstop. Today I am feeling better but I know not to get too comfortable as the flood of feelings could come back at any given time, the way they did before. Thank you for listening to my story and for your support.