Saturday Nights are killing me.

Oh George that is a lot to manage. I did not realize the extent of your illness. That is a Job! And your Art is Awesome! I am sorry for your troubles. It is very difficult what "We" all have been through. I wish I could take your pain away. I don't even know how I manage to get up and out everyday. I guess cause I have to work and support myself. But I only get thru it by not talking about My "G". Otherwise I would be a puddle of tears. I come to this site so I can talk about him and cry in private. with all of you. For which I am so grateful to you all for welcoming me. I will get to know you better and perhaps come up with better suggestions going forward. Thank you for listening. Kim Elizabeth.

 

Hey Kim Elizabeth! I totally appreciate your kind messages! This is a particularly hard time because today Valerie would have been 59, I feels so thwarted and frustrated and sad all at once. It is so hard to keep being strong. You are a great support and I hope I can be too! It's so hard to help anybody when it feels like you can barely help yourself. We just need to keep hanging in there and NEVER give up! Lottsa love from me to you! Be strong!

 

Thank You for that George. I am struggling a lot today. Crying bursts. Good Luck if today is your Dialysis day. I have heard that it can be quite a task. So here is hoping for an easy day. I am at work. til 4pm. Trying to hold myself together til I can go get my McDonalds Shake at Lunch time! Vanilla with whipped cream.....Talk soon. KE

 

George, I hope that you got through Valerie's Birthday with a degree of Comfort. Knowing that all of us here are sending you Good Wishes. Let us know if we can help you. Have a Happy Thursday! Kim Elizabeth

 

Thanks KE... I got through it and I keep trying. The grief journey takes so much out of you. I appreciate your thoughtful words... sometimes itz real easy to lose sight of the goal of being kind to one's self!

 

Yay!

 

Shakes are awesome!!! Enjoy! That is great example of being kind to yourself!

 

BroGeo, I'm proud of you, my
younger brother, for "getting
through" Valerie's birthday,
just as we all try to get
through, but never over, our
grief for our soulmates. I'm
glad you acknowledge Valerie's
birth date, instead of her death
date. I do the same for Linda, and it's finally able to make me
smile. I enjoy your reaching out
to our new member, Kim
Elizabeth, from my state of
Massachusetts, and her warm
replies to you. Lou

 

Thanks my bro! You are so right I celebrate her birthday and remember happy birthdaze from our lives together! Like the time we actually went out to dinner and I took her to see the "Marchies:" or how she termed mariachis! Lots of good memories overall! Hot and humid in BerwynTown..

 

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Love your humorous recollections of Valerie's unique
phrases. Right after Linda died,
my grief counselor asked me to
write down all of Linda's funny
sayings. I told her I couldn't
without weeping. But, just as
with reading the powerful
The Widower's Notebook, a
memoir, by Jonathan Santlofer,one day I could.
Now, I can quote her and
laugh with both friends and
strangers. Linda always loved
the effect she had on people, as
did I. Brother Lou

 

BrLoo I always in my mind hear things in Valerie's fun and unique wordplay. For all her faults- no one is perfect. She wasa smart funny and witty. I would refer to her as "Amusal-rie" . Feeling more myself and mellow today... At least Dialysis is air conditioned!
This is an older digital visual creation:

Try to be happy...

 

Wow,psychedelic picture,
Lombardo! Reminds me of the
funny character , Austin
Powers, when his movies had
similar pictures. Lou

 

George, I like your affectionate
nickname for Valerie. This may
be the first time you shared the
lighter side of Valerie , which
made you fall in love with her
in the first place. Lou

 

Thantz from my digital art phase. Glad you like it. Valerie and I were ALWAYS coming up with silly and/or hideous names for each other. Maybe now that I am letting go of her maniac side, I can groove to the nice side!

 

Brother George, just came
home from dancing almost
nonstop 'til my feet hurt & I
had to sit down. My usual dance
partners hadn't arrived. I noticed a woman in the
corner of the bar , who I'd never
seen before. She was dancing
by herself, joyously, to the
blues beat of the band ( blues
is my favorite type of music).
I asked her to dance with me
in front of the band,and she
accepted. It was only later
when we were about to leave,
that I found out her name. She
hadn't been to this bar in quite
a while, but when my female
friends arrived, they hugged
bc they knew each other. The
woman told me she was divorced, like all my dance
partners, & I told her my wife
died. After she offered her
sympathy, I said my female
friends,who I didn't know last
year, have saved me in my
grief. Like you. I can smile at
the good memories of Linda.
Lobster Lou Travolta

 

So happy for you to have found something! I'm still looking... though. Hottest most humid day of the year in BerwynVille 'sposed to get near 100... I'm waiting, wanting... something good to happen here. If it weren't so humid might try and do some art. Take care Bro!

 

Thanks,younger brother. Word
of caution: Don't try to do
ANYTHING in your horrible
heat & humidity. I say a prayer
of gratitude to God that our
summers just have short heat
waves ( 3 days in a row of 90
degree days). I think your weather is among the worst in
the U.S, but that of Rose, in
Italy,is the worst of all: After
torrential, endless rain and
flooding, are temps over 100
degrees . Rose can walk outside
only early mornings. I can't
imagine living like that. Lou

 

So far doing well without AC... not too bad, but I'm not going out there! Take care!

 

I agree Lou, I acknowledge more my C's birthday rather than the other date I don't even to wish to mention. I find this just happens automatically in my mind, preferring to embrace those "once in a lifetime" beautiful memories we shared together, which I am so grateful for, they keep me going, keep me sane, but at the same time ever so heartbroken and sad.

It's been a little cooler these last few days, a great relief, but I think there's more in store next week, August won't let us get away with it that easily!

Lou, I think you've beaten John Travolta by now, you've probably been dancing so much more than he ever did in his films, including the famous duet with Uma Thurman in Pulp Fiction! Ever tried that one?
Rose

 

I KNOW how you feel....

Rose