Dec 23 - Jan 23 - I guess it's one month, but it's really 4 weeks and 3 days. Every day is a bit harder. I've seen in some groups, and someone told me last night that for their mother losing her husband, the 2nd year was actually harder. So I just don't know. 10 years of caregiving I think kind of melded us together in a way that maybe wasn't "normal", and now a part of me is ripped away and the loss, sorrow, and pain is just too much and getting worse. I'm bleeding.