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Nights are the hardest

Discussion in 'Loss of Spouse' started by Kbowski88, Jul 10, 2026.

  1. Kbowski88

    Kbowski88 New Member

    Tonight is really rough today the 10th marks one week exactly well at 330pm it will.I was holding my husbands hand as he took his last breath.ive been crying for over an hr but don't want to wake my kids. Can't use the shower to muffle my cry because the shower would wake them..during the day its easier to stay distracted but in the night in the quiet of our room in our bed im left alone with my own thoughts.
     
  2. Don Y

    Don Y Active Member

    I agree. I call it the "loud quiet". a couple of months in, I bought a body pillow and put it on her side of the bed. I still use it.
     
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  3. Kbowski88

    Kbowski88 New Member

    Im using his pillows and mine i surround myself like a nest...every night has been hard but last night was definitely the hardest yet.
     
  4. Kbowski88

    Kbowski88 New Member

    Today marks a week exactly..took my kids to the movies. lost it in Arby's while we were having lunch. almost lost it while driving but was able to hold back my tears.. I finally heard back from a breavement group that's local..its like 2x a month. so that's something.