I think the first 6 months were the worse but a pet really does help me, I have two. I find I want to spend a lot of time at home alone and definitely don't want to go out with couples as I really feel the empty seat next to me. I have been watching Father Brown Mysteries and Doc Martin: Total escape but somehow it helps deal with time passing. I know a lot of healing is relate to time so binge watching tv just helps the time go by until then. At some point I am sure I will get fed up with myself. I am a psychologist and even with my own good advice to myself I can not improve on that. I am not religious but thinking will in 10 years or 15 I will join him together where ever that is, and believe it all. It helps me. Anyone listening live near San Francisco and want to go out for a good cry together over coffee?