Helena and Debra,
Debra, I don't think I've "met" you yet, so I want you to know how truly sorry I am that you have to be here, but how glad I am that you found us. It SUCKS!!!, but the comfort we get from sharing the most heartbreaking experience in our lives with people who "get" it, is the absolute best. Both you and Helena are right on target, no one can possibly even remotely "get" it, until the most heartbreaking experience, losing the one true love of their lives, happens to them. This is NOT!!!, TU!!! something I would want to happen to my very worst enemy. The pain..., the feeling like our hearts have been torn in half..., is almost way too much to bear..., almost way to difficult to comprehend..., the one true love of our lives will NEVER be able to come home again. Having people tell us we will "get over it" in time, and that our loved ones are in a "better place," is way beyond ridiculous, and so NOT!!! the least bit comforting, or helpful, as those who don't "get" it, think it will be.
Backing up just a bit, I HATE!!! when those who haven't experienced this total heartbreak tell us that our loved one is in a "better place," but I don't mind when others who have lost the one true love of their lives say this to me. Yes, I'm glad my husband, Bob, is no longer suffering, but, and this is one of those really BIG BUTS!!!, does this make me feel any better, NO WAY!!!, TU!!! It is a very bittersweet thing, OTOH I'm glad he's out of all the excruciating pain he had to endure for way too many years, but and this is a very BIG BUT!!!, I miss him with all my heart, and always will.
I find some comfort in knowing that he is watching over me, just as I believe everyone else's one true love of their lives is watching over them, and I no longer fear death. I know when it's my turn to leave this earth, I will be reunited with Bob. Love is eternal. No one, and absolutely nothing, can EVER!!! take this away.
Stopping here for now. So much more I want to say, but I really want to take a long walk. One of my favorite ways of keeping Mr Grief (the way Karen, a GIC friend describes it, and now has become the way lots of us refer to grief), from suffocating me, is by getting as much fresh air, sunshine, and exercise as I possibly can.
I hope both of you have at least one reason to smile today...
As always, sending you hugs, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB
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