My last five and a half years

Deb,

I'm so sorry to hear that one of your cats isn't doing well. Our fur babies are just family members with fur. They love us unconditionally, and ask for so little in return. It makes me so sad, teary eyed, whenever I learn that a much loved furry family member is struggling. Sending you a GIANT!!! (variety is the spice of life) virtual hug...

Sending you lots more hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB & Skye

P.S. Although Skye thinks she is a lap dog, she is way too big to be one. She is about 61 lbs, but I think she might have gained a couple pounds recently, with very long legs, much smaller than my last dog, who was approximately 90 lbs., but who insisted she was a lap dog, trying to squeeze her entire body onto my lap all of the time. At least Skye recognizes that she is just too big, and eventually will lie next to me with her head in my lap, or unfortunately, with her butt in my lap instead, lol... I think I just set a new record for my longest run on sentence, lol...

 

George,

It's good to "see" you here this morning!!!, TUTTAM!!! No words of wisdom, no advice, just sending you another one of the world's BIGGEST hugs...

Sending you lots more hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace, all the way from TUTTAMVILLE. Debanator and Skye Queen

 

Georgine,

I'm so glad you found this site, and are sticking with us!!!, TUTTAM!!! You express your feelings so perfectly, so beautifully... Reading your posts always gives me something to think about. You've made a positive difference in my life in the short time we've "known" each other. Thank you for being here.

As always, sending you lots of hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB & Skye

 

Debster, so glad I amused you this am, as
you amuse me, and all TGW. I know what
you mean about needing caffeine,bc I'm
sitting at my favorite breakfast place, at
the counter, talking with the waitress,a
widow about my age. Sure, I could've had
coffee & breakfast at home on this rainy,
gloomy day, but I needed to see smiling
faces, and interact with customers at the
counter. I glanced over at a couple in their
50s, in a booth. They had glum faces, weren't talking to each other, and were
looking over their partners' heads. WTF?
I wanted to shake them, and yell, " don't
you realize what you have in front of
you?". Linda & I always looked into each
other's eyes at a restaurant. I'm grateful
that toward what would be her end here
on earth, we were able to be outside a
breakfast place, peacefully gazing out to
sea. I choke back tears when I write this.
Even though I'm Lou Travolta, with an
almost Mr. Hyde maniacal dancing frenzy
with multiple female partners, at night, I
can be a
sad, quiet, lonely Dr.Jekyll , by day. I don't
really want to be involved with one
woman, with all its' complications, incl
living together, or intimacy. I met a
divorced woman last night. We were
dancing fast & slow, and she noticed my
wandering eye, as I watched other
women dance.She looked a little annoyed,
and said. "you can dance with someone
ELSE". I said no, and continued to dance
with her. As we left the bar , she surprised
me by kissing me on the cheek. I realized
no woman , since Linda, had done that, and
I felt weird. I didn't ask for her number, but told her about a drum circle I'm in,
and said she'd be welcome to join us. The
strange thing is I don't care if she shows up
or not. It may be that I'm not attracted to
her physically. I was attracted to another
woman, however, younger, and still
working, who reminded me of Linda. I
guess I like women, but have to tread
lightly. Brother Gary understands what
I'm talking about, and I know you do, too,
DEB. Confused Mr. Hyde

 

Wow the Lobsterman is becoming a chick magnet!

 

YoDebTheDeb we just do what we can. Dialysis was four hours of annoying boredom. But I get through it. I have to. What else is there to do. Weather is for cold and rain showers the next two weeks. I need warmth! I need sun! You and The Skye seem so sweet and happy! I'm glad for you!

 

Thanks, Lombardo. I love to dance, and
bc of that, and the smile in my face, most
women think I'm 10 yrs younger than I
am. I don't lie, if asked, and I like to see
the looks of astonishment on their faces.It's not that I'm a "chick magnet" ( thank you
for the compliment, BroGeo!!), but the fact
is that there are more women than men,
around my age, in my area....Lou T.

 

Deb,

I hope that the health issue is resolved soon with little stress on you. I fully understand how important your little one is to you and how you wish that Steve would be with you at this time. So many times, I have wished the same. I feel the same way about "tech savviness." I never joined Facebook, LinkedIn or any media site though LinkedIn insists upon telling me that I have been "invited" to......("whatever"). I have no interest in any of it and have always believed that it was a marketing tool for big media. So, it was a huge step for me to decide to join this site. I am very happy that I did.

Take care, Deb, and I send you love and wish you the best in your decisions concerning your little one.

DEB,

Thank you for your message. I am humbled by your text and deeply appreciate it. You and the participants in our conversations give me the comfort that no one else here on earth can provide. I admire all of you for your courage. And, thank you for your uplifting words in every text you write. You are an inspiration to all Grief Warriors with your texts.
And, now, that the thunderstorms have cleared here in South Carolina, I will walk Elvis, Socrates and Giselle on this beautiful day. Your description of your walk with Skye at sunrise is fantastic! I am so happy that you have Skye, and Skye has you.
Love and continued happiness to you and Skye,
Georgine

 

Your antics put a rare smile on my face this morning!

 

Wow, Georgine, good for you for not
succumbing to Big Tech, which is as bad as
Big Pharma, mainstream media "talking
heads".and Big Government. Screw them
all. In Linda's memory ( she was a feisty,
funny, and independent soul, like I am),
I will continue to dance to the music, and
enjoy every last minute of my days on
God's green earth. Lou

 

Thanks, Lou. I have to give credit to my Pierre, though. He saw right through them; right from the start. I will always remember the time we were on a vacation in the Galapagos Islands, and a senior executive with LinkedIn was extolling the benefits of joining LinkedIn. Pierre stopped her speech with one question, which essentially confronted her with the truth that LinkedIn uses and markets to their own advantage all the information on the site. I am glad that you keep dancing. How good for the soul!

 

Love Pierre and you, Georgine. As DEB & I
often say, Bob, Linda, DEB, and I were on
the same page and would've had a fun
time together. I believe the same applies
to other couples here, like you & Pierre,
Karen & Jack, Robin & Ron, Gary & Cheryl,
George & Valerie, and many others. I'd
like to believe our spirits will be reunited
in the afterlife. Lou Travolta!

 

Wow I was a couple once... Seems so surreal today for some reason. Valerie would be too crabby to meet anyone! LoL
I just realized 2008 was 15 years ago! ****

 

Well, Brother Lombardo from dreary,
gloomy, rainy Lombardville, there were 2
Valeries and 2 Lindas: The women we fell in love with and married, for many years,
and the sad, understandably bitter old
ladies they became. Bro Lobster Man

 

That's where I'm at now... in the process of trying to forgive her so I can let go and accept my new realities. Tis is a selfish and demanding emotional process Br Lou. I am not enjoying it but is necessary.

 

And, Lou, the daily Bible verse which a friend sent to me today reads:

1 Thessalonians 4:13-18

But we would not have you ignorant, brethern, concerning those who are asleep, that you may not grieve as others do who have no hope.
Therefore, console one another with these words.

 

Mr. hyde, aka Loustarino from Lobsterville, aka, Lou T., (I'm thinking I probably forgot at least one of your many a/k/a(s), but, and this is another one of those really BIG!!! BUTS, as always, blaming it on my way too foggy widow brain. At least I have something I can blame it on, lol...)

I'm so over the top happy for you!!! You have morphed into the very best version of yourself you possibly can be, and in the process, have become a much more confident person. I love!!! that you no longer feel you need one special woman for companionship in order to be happy!!!, TUTTAM!!! In order to be truly happy, I believe we need to feel good about ourselves first, like the people who we are morphing into, confident in our ability to tackle difficult situations, and make important decisions on our own, before a relationship, whether it it is just for companionship or for a combination of companionship and intimacy, can work.

I think there are probably way too many people who think that if only I found the right person, the person who is right for me at this point in time, after the one true love of my life has passed away, I would be happy, my life would be complete. But, what if the right person never comes along??? Someone who believes this could end up wasting the precious time he/she has left on earth, searching for someone other than himself/herself to fill the emptiness in his/her life, instead of searching inside to find out what really makes him/her come alive... We have to like our own company, love ourselves, before we can have a meaningful relationship with someone else.

Linda will always be a big part of your life, she will always hold the biggest place in your heart... By doing the things that you enjoy the most, you've found happiness in this f*cked up bittersweet world we've been thrown into, and have made many female friends along the way. Although Linda wanted you to find another woman to share the rest of your life with, I know Linda is smiling down at you from wherever she is... You are honoring her memory the very best way possible, by living your life to the fullest extent possible, enjoying the company of many woman, not just one. Someday, you and Linda will be reunited for eternity, but, and this is the BIGGEST!!! BUT!!! yet, I hope it isn't for a very long time to come.

Keep on dancing Lou Travolta!!!

With lots of hugs and love, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB & Skye

 

And, also, Lou, I want to tell you how grateful I am that you ask the name of our spouse. Seeing your message beginning with "Love Pierre......."
gave me indescribable joy. It reinforces the power of all the framed photos in my home, including the one in the kitchen in which he is smilimg and looking at me.

Pierre and I would have loved to have met you and Linda. In the meantime, we will comfort each other, as the verse says.

Thank you, Lou.

 

Debster, I'll take it (GIANT !!! hug) And I'm sending it back to you -- all the way to TUTTAMVILLE. And one for Skye kisses too.

 

Deb, I am so glad that you have little Skye. I know how deep and how loving that connection is! Truly. ❤️ Charlie isn’t doing well, but he’s sad such an old soul, if you can imagine. He was there when my dad died. And he walked up to Steve’s face when he took his last breath. It just reinforces what I am learning: We are deeply connected. Sorry if I sound weird and crazy. But Steve’s death has forced me to reevaluate everything. We are all connected. I have no doubt. Thank you Deb. ❤️