Similar situation here. My first love and father of my son, has died. I just found out. He died in 2007 but I did not find out. My son does not have any relationship with him. It's very sad. It sounds like Bill had a hard life. I found a short obituary that said he had colon cancer when he was 50, which was cured, but then got Lung Cancer in 2007 and died in the hospital. Breaks my heart. I want to know if anyone was there with him when he died. I pray there was. He was married but I'm not sure if he and his wife were still together. I cannot stop thinking about him and crying over the loss. All the I wish I would have contacted him....I wish that I knew he was ill, etc. I don't really know what to do.