My first day home alone…

Discussion in 'Coping After a Sudden Loss' started by hsmaestro, Aug 2, 2021.

  1. hsmaestro

    hsmaestro New Member

    My husband died 2 weeks ago today at the age of 48. After planning his funeral where we live and attending a memorial where he grew up, today is my first day home alone. He was diagnosed with cirrhosis of the liver in April and Kidney failure in May. His doctor constantly told me he was walking a fine line, but was just released to rehab on 7/14 before being readmitted to a different hospital on the 16th and passing on the 19th. I just find myself with SO MANY QUESTIONS…Why’s and What If’s… I also find myself feeling some guilt wondering what I could do differently.
    We met 22 years ago as teachers at the school district we continued to work at… So our relationship was 24/7/365… My heart is empty and broken. My friends and family are great listeners and have been there every step through this but like my best friend told me today, I am here for you…anything that you need, but I can’t even begin to understand what you are going through or how you are feeling… My research from that comment brought me here…
  2. DoraMarie

    DoraMarie New Member

    No one can begin to understand, unless they have
    lost their soulmate I am so sorry for you’re loss.
  3. Oyin

    Oyin New Member

    So sorry for your loss. May you find peace .