I agree it does seem unbearable, but I want you to know, that God can support you and strengthen you because He did so for me after our son's suicide. Cry out to God with your honest feelings and also share with us here. We care about you. Chris
I lost my 25 year old daughter in a car accident on 12-10-2020. I had her when I was 22 and she was everything to me. I have always been treated like an outsider in my own family. Having her was the best thing that ever happened to me. I got married when she was almost 5 and I had two boys who I love very much but Keianna was my best friend she and I had a fantastic relationship. The man I married went from being a loving husband to a cruel husband and father. He knew I wasn’t going to leave because he was wealthy and I would not be able to get custody of my boys so I stayed. It was basically just the four of us as he ran around going out taking trips whatever he wanted. I found out he was cheating on me and my daughter started to cut herself and drinking to numb her pain because he was so mean to her. I moved her to Florida to get her away from him and she became a happy funny beautiful girl. I wish I had went with her but he had taken away any self esteem or self worth I had. I was a loser I was the punch line to his jokes. She came home for Christmas and he was being rude as usual so she went to visit friends. She said she couldn’t be around him. That night at 3:30 the police and coroner were at my door. She rolled her care and died on impact. I was devastated and in shock the funeral home ask for 20 pics for a video but I couldn’t. I don’t hardly remember the service other than she looked beautiful. Acouple months later I watched the video and it was one pic of the family one pic of her with her brothers and 18 pictures of him with her he had cropped everyone else out. Not one picture of me with my baby. His mom didn’t even come to the service and she sent me a card that said having a bad day buy cute boots and dance in the rain. I have been a good person my whole life I have been there for my mom paid my sisters bills paid my brothers bills and donated bone marrow that saved his life. I have had the same hair dresser for twenty years. My husband took off and disappeared for 47 days I think on drugs. I have spent the last two years completely alone. I have no one people don’t care and everyday it gets harder to go on. One son is married and lives in Georgia the other is in college and lives with his girlfriend. I’m just so tired of missing her and being alone. I still cry everyday. I just don’t understand why
