I lost my best friend 3.5 years ago. we met in high school and were together for 18 years. We could never be open about our love. She was married for 10 years and had a son. In spite of this our love was strong and genuine. This selfless pure love comes once in a lifetime. Now that i have lost her my world has changed...i dont know who i am and what i want from life. All i have is regrets... The worst part is that i cannot talk to anyone about this here. no one will be able to understand my loss. For them she was just my "best friend" but for me the love of my life...my support system...everything I don't have friends (she was my person. never felt the need for anyone else) and each time i even think of going out there to make new connections i just dont have the motivation for it. Feel very lonely at times but still cannot bring myself to do anything about it.