Hi, Not even sure where to start. I am an introvert, so in person talking with the usual friends/family is tough. I have gotten some support from my mom and my wife's sister on the phone (both are 1000 miles away). So I figured I'd look to the internet, since that's where I met my wife (kinda, it was on AOL in the mid 90s before the internet was really the internet). We met online as I said. She moved from OH to CA to be with me a year later. Then we left CA for CO a few years after that and got married after 7 years total. She passed just over a month ago now. And this week I am on vacation for what would have been our 20th anniversary, so that makes it harder. She had dealt with demons and mental issues from before I met her, and then some traumatic things (surgeries and deaths in her family) made it worse. So she turned to alcohol and the short version is that and her tobacco use finally caught up with her. We have no kids (3 cats). And I have no siblings of my own. She was basically everything to me, so I am having a hard time figuring out how to move forward since she and I always thought of ourselves as 2 vs the world. Now it's just 1. Thank you for reading.