Lost My Wife 2 Weeks Ago

Hi, I am glad I found this forum.

My wife of three days under a year and a half passed away on November 7th. She was 50 yo. She'd been battling cancer, but that wasn't what killed her. She'd had heart attacks in the past and suffered from congestive heart failure. In recent months her Type 2 diabetes spun out of control, as well. Leading up to her passing she'd been successful mitigating the diabetes using her insulin. But it was too much too late.

On the morning of the 7th I woke up expecting her to be ready for a rare day off for both of us. We were planning on taking a drive along Lake Michigan to see the Fall colors. But I knew as soon as I saw her that she was gone.

I replay that morning over and over again. I keep trying to wake her up. The paramedics said she's gone into cardiac arrest and died sometime early that morning. It's a tragic ending to our story.

The grief comes in waves. Today was the worst yet. I woke up paralyzed with fear and grief, and it lasted the entire day, which is why I sought out and found this forum. Even though I belong to a local grief support group, I find that I need to talk or write about my grief everyday. Her loss left a massive void in my life. Sometimes that void swallows me whole.