Lost my soulmate 3/5/21 and I feel dead

I lost my wife to suicide on 3/5/21 and I literally feel like I died with her. She was my life, love, best friend and my soulmate. We knew on our first date we were meant to be and that was 8 years ago. I literally don’t think I will ever get over this. She was a psychiatrist and I am a nurse, we are both women and we had 4 children together. Our youngest sons behavior is what pushed her over the edge. He tore our family apartand felt no remorse and I lost her and now I just feellost and empty!