Karen,
Since our conversations last summer (???), time seems to fly by so quickly, even though the minutes making up a day, when slammed by Mr. Grief, can seem endless... I originally was going to scatter half of Bob's ashes in the ocean, in one of his very favorite places, where we shared so many magical moments together, and bury the other half in a National Cemetery. I still plan on having a memorial sometime in the future, but...I'm still NOT!!! strong enough. When I'm not as emotionally fragile, and when my children, and a handful of very close friends, are able to coordinate their schedules, we'll vacation in the Dutch Caribbean, scatter half his ashes over the ocean..., and celebrate his life with a party in his memory... Bob wanted this for us, to be happy..., to enjoy life to the very fullest... I want with all my heart to be able to do this for him... Those floodgates just opened...
Instead of burying the other half of his ashes in a National Cemetery, I've already asked my children, when I'm finally reunited with Bob, to combine our ashes, and bury us in a calm, peaceful place, somewhere near the ocean, underneath a beautiful tree. They are happy to do this for me, but it made them very sad..., they said they weren't ready for this conversation, but I told them although I don't plan on joining Bob soon, only God knows when I'll be reunited with him. I told them how much better I feel knowing I talked to them about my wishes, before it's too late.
Sort of on the same subject,it's illegal to bury more than one person's ashes in the same urn, or even just half of one person's ashes in one urn,in National Cemeteries. However, I doubt anyone except my family and friends, would ever know if I had decided to do this. I think my change of plans, to keep the rosewood box containing half of Bob's ashes with me, until it's my time to be reunited with him, would make him happiest.
It's because of you, that I decided to do this. I'm finally positive this is the right decision for Bob, for me, for both of us. I can't thank you enough for sharing your story. If it wasn't for your very sad, but beautiful story, I might not of thought of this. Backing up just a bit, I love that you're going to bury Allen (? I hope this is your son's name, my memory definitely isn't what it used to be!!!, TUTTAM!!!) next to you and Jack... Thinking about all of this, has me reaching for for more tissues...
I hope you have at least one LMSO moment today...
As always, sending you and Rambo lots of hugs, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB
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