I lost my son Joey in 2001 due to suicide, and now I lost my remaining son Alex 2/20/2023. I have an immense emptiness in my life now. I'm uncertain how to move forward. My youngest Alex was my best friend, my fishing buddy, my work mate. Everywhere I go there's a trigger that makes me realize there is a huge hole in my life now. Alex was a baby when his half-brother Joey passed. Alex helped me grieve and mend after Joey's passing. Now, Alex is gone. Alex had his own demons and we fought them together and beat them in 2019. Alex went into rehab for an opioid addiction. He came out the other end a better person and everyone noticed the change. He was very much loved throughout the community and had a positive impact on a great deal of people especially our customers (which makes it very difficult to go to work now). My wife is severely grief stricken and will not talk to me very much and pushes me away. She was very supportive after my son Joey's passing (but he was not her child). I do not know how to help my wife as well as myself. My wife seems to be able to talk about day to day and work with others but, cannot speak to me about anything. We have been together for 30 yrs., and I don't know what I would do if I lost her. The main problem I'm having is lack of sleep, I cannot sleep, and this affects everything else.