hello, I lost a friend recently to suicide whom I used to be very close with. Nobody around me understands the significance he had in my life. I have been finding myself crying at the most random times, lack of sleep and appetite. I cant talk to people about it because they don't understand. I called a support line and they told me I should find a way to have a memorial or honor him. But I tried that. Any suggestions? I need something comforting.