Loss of husband in 2020 and unearthing betrayal

Hey there the Lou... I am really trying today! To0k TB to school in cold harsh rain! At least it's not snow. Gonna try to do some art today. Hopefully that will help my precarious mood!

 

Rain sucks, but snow hinders my ability to
walk, and is much worse for me. I forgot
it was Wed Art Therapy day, but I should've
remembered , bc it's my drum circle day,
as well as Sat. If you're up to it, Lombardo
Da Vinci, you always cheer up the winter
darkness with your bright colors, even
if they don't match your mood. As BroGar
says, we have to keep on trucking. The Lou

 

Thanks for the kind words LobsterDude!

 

Anytime, BroGeo. You, BroGar, and Chad
( when he shows up) stick together! Lou

 

Wednesday art! Cuz I try

 

A friend sent me this poem and I hope it doesn't make George more depressed. It's such a sweet poem.

And, there in the mists of my memory
I see you.
And, there in the mists of my memory
You shall always be.

Written by Athey Thompson

 

Beautiful, Lombardo -one of your best.
Cheered me up on a gray, raw day in
Lobsterville. I'm sure other GWs feel the
same way. Bro Lou Dude

 

Beautiful, Ms. Hum. Thank you. I needed
that today. Lou from Lobsterland

 

George, maybe this will help with your day of depression. Jack always had a veggie/fruit, etc. garden out back. Recently the deer (bambies) have decided to bring all their friends and family through my fences that need repair. I must of had 35 bambies, Mom, babies and one buck. They love my weeds because of Jack's fertilizer that seems to still be good. A little afraid of ticks my neighbor came over and helped me repair the fences. Now they stand over the fence waiting for it to open. They are the most majestic creatures when they run and hop. They just touched my soul. Ms Hum!

 

That's a great story! I'm really trying to feel better. It is cold rain here today I just hope the snow and ice stays north! Thanks Hum!

 

Thanks BL!

 

Beautiful image, but you are wise to be
wary of Lyme's disease, Ms. Hum! Louster

 

What a lovely scene, Karen. Like I just told Deb in the other topic, the only animals invading our territory are giant horrible-looking wild boar. We used to be able to plant potatoes, but we can't do that anymore, they just dig them up and eat them. (I wouldn't be able to do this work anyway, without my C).
Rose

 

George, I came on specifically checking for your art. You never disappoint. Love them! Thank you for trying. You made my day! Robin

 

Summer ( Robin), just woke up in the
middle of the night, and decided to
check GIC. Good to see you on here,
praising Lombardo Da Vinci's art. I've
been doing the same since he did this on
Wed Art Therapy day. I was just about to respond to Rose, who I can usually count
on to post this time of night. I'm so
proud as "The Godfather" of GIC, that
Rose, DEB, Ms. Hum ( Karen), Gary, Deb,
Bernadine, George,and others, have
reached out to welcome and comfort
Helen, whose husband, Bruce, died. I
don't remember if you've responded to
her. If not, I hope you do. Helen has
moved to Mexico since Bruce's death.
It is , as you put it, a happy mixed with
sad time for her, without Bruce physically
beside her. All of us Grief Warriors feel
this "bittersweet" existence, as our dear
friend, DEB, calls it. She doesn't have Bob
to share her caring for the new dog, Skye,
in her life. I don't have Linda to share my
love of live music in my local cafe, which
didn't exist while Linda was alive. After
replying to Rose, I will go back to sleep.
I'm bracing for very cold temps this
weekend, as you are. But, we never have it
as bad as Gary, in Indiana, George, in
the Chicago area of Illinois, or Deb, in
the deep freeze , snow, and endless winter
in Minnesota. Stay warm, Robin, and
think summer! Lobster Lou

 

It was a real struggle to do them this week. This has been the 2 year mark and I just have this massive tearing hole in the middle of me. I am so glad you like my art and I will continually post them. If I have to force myself to do it I will!

 

Thanks, Bro Lombardo. That's why we
call you the Ultimate Grief Warrior
( UGW). Having a tough time, too, after
over 4 yrs since Linda's death . Talked to
her & cried in the middle of the night and
replied to Helen, Rose, & others, and felt
better. I don't know what I'd do without
my friends here, who "get it". BTW,
winter SUCKS, & makes things a lot
worse, as you & I both know, only too
well. Cold LobsterDude

 

Itz 21 right now in LombarduaTown... every night I dream that Valerie is still alive and I'm still a teacher. I desire so much to pull it together but it is SO HARD! I appreciate your support I really need some support these daze...

 

George my heart aches for you. I can totally relate to that massive hole feeling. I’m impressed that you push through. A lot of things I always enjoyed I can’t even think about. Who am I? I ask myself all the time. Where is that happy loving life person? I hear Ron saying, should something happen to me don’t waste time mourning. Live life, enjoy life. We will meet again. He was never sick but we had these difficult conversations. I told him no promises but I would try. It’s hard. I told him the same thing he told me. And he answered the same. I think if I was the one who passed he wouldn’t get out as much as I try to get out. He wouldn’t look for a grief site either. His birthday is Monday. Not looking forward to it. I miss going to work with Ron every day. Then I remember we were going to retire on my birthday the next year. Then I miss our dreams for retirement. I think the struggles are all from having the perfect partner. If things weren’t so wonderful we would struggle less. But I wouldn’t change anything because those 44 years were the best years of my life. Keep on pushing George, be good to yourself. We’re all here for you. Sending you hugs and thanking you for sharing your talent. Robin

 

Thank you Lou, I’m thinking and dreaming of spring and summer. We definitely all miss our better half in everything we do. Each of us in our own way. I’ve been struggling and in extra pain lately. Ron was so caring and jumped up to help me without me even asking. I miss that and everything else. As I just told George, Ron’s birthday is coming up and I’m dreading it. But I will honor his life and remember all the good he did for so many people. The best husband and Dad anyone could ask for. Great business man, son, brother and friend. He was taken way too soon but he did live a full life and have an impact on so many.
I’m so tired of winter and most definitely thinking of summer, I can’t wait. And yes bracing for this cold coming our way. I was hoping we were done with those cold temps. Summer