Hi my name is Shanesha On November 17 my died in the morning and I gave birth to my son in the evening. I felt numb and blocked off thinking about him for a while because I had a newborn to deal with. Everyone told me how lucky I was that I have gained a new baby . But what about the loss of my best friend who was always there for me. Always cheering me on with everything I did in life. Each month as my baby gets bigger I am remembering that it is also the same day my dad died. I go to rest and dream of him an awake angry because I no longer can see him. I don't know how to cope without him
