My mom passed away at the end of January of this year, and it still feels like it happened yesterday. She passed away unexpectedly literally a month before I was supposed to move to the same state she was in so that I could be closer to her. We made plans to do so many things and that was all taken away me. I had so many firsts without her in such a short time it’s been very difficult to cope. I turned 40 in April and that day was hard, then Mother’s Day was hard and I just can’t stop wondering why this had to happen this way. Everyone has moved on with their lives and the calls have stopped but I’m still feeling like there’s a whole in my heart. People are also trying to tell me how to grieve which makes me just withdraw and grieve in silence. I’m just really hurting and I miss her so much everyday.