This summer my husband of 23 years passed away alone at the VA hospital. I hate that I wasn't there for him, only face time. He had been ill, but we had every reason to believe that he was coming home after being in the hospital for 3 weeks. He was doing very well and then suddenly got pneumonia and passed a few days later. I have so much sadness and anger, I feel like the hospital did not take good care of him, or listen to me in that last 4 days. The day before he passed it took 15 hours of me calling every extension in the hospital before I could talk to a doctor. He was just getting sicker and sicker and they wouldn't let me in. I feel like everyone is moving on and I keep being so sad that it is all I can do to get through the day. We are back to working from home and it is days of being alone with his things and I don't think I can take a whole winter of this. I am not sure if what I am feeling is normal, all I do know is that I am miserable and it doesn't seem to be getting better.