Karen.
I had to laugh because Bob used to do the same thing that Jack did in every single place we shopped. I hope that someday, "Mr. Grief" will decide that it's time to let us shop in peace... I hope that even though the memories will be with us when we shop, and will always be bittersweet, hopefully in time, they will become much more sweet, lots less bitter... I will be so happy if the day ever arrives when I don't need to wear my sunglasses inside, and go armed with zillions of tissues, every time I need to go shopping!!!, TU!!! Backing up a bit, I don't think painful memories will ever become good ones and visa versa. I think that as we continue to heal, the painful ones will lose some of their sting, while the happy ones will cause less tears. I don't know if I'm answering your question or if I'm making much sense, I'm way past exhausted, both physically and emotionally, again tonight. I'm too tired to even reread this to see if it makes any sense to me, so if it doesn't make any sense to you, just scrap the above.
On to better things... Thank you for getting me to smile tonight. I know I've changed in so many ways since Bob's death, and I know I'll never be the same person I was before, but it is good to hear you tell me that my sense of humor didn't go with Bob. I'm glad I got you to laugh, if only for a second. I think that being able to laugh is something that so many people probably take for granted, I know I did before Bob died, but it is something that all of us should treasure. Without laughter, the world would be such a miserable place, TU!!!
I have to tell you that Bob was by far the funniest person I ever knew. I was attracted to him right away because of his wonderful sense of humor. Even though I was extremely attracted to him physically, if he hadn't had that sense of humor, it wouldn't have mattered if he was the most handsome man on earth, the relationship wouldn't have made it past a couple of dates. His sense of humor made the best of times even better, and helped us get through the worst of times. We kept each other laughing and shared so many inside jokes. Just thinking about all those inside jokes..., those remember whens..., has me teary eyed as I'm "talking" to you.
The one thing I can say is that life with Bob was never boring. He had a great sense of adventure, loved to travel, and go on spur of the moment day trips. I remember BK (before kids as we used to say), he would always be up at the crack of dawn on the weekends, even if we had been up really late the night before, eager to start the day, always thinking of ways to make even ordinary chore days more fun. I remember I would roll over, pull the covers over my head, and beg him to either go back to sleep for awhile, or to get up, and start the coffee, but not at least for half an hour more!!! Lots of times he would make me breakfast. He made the best omelettes... He loved to cook. I'm starting to ramble on and on and on again, maybe Energizer should hire me for one of their commercials, so stopping here.
Thank you so much for your reply. It has brought back some really good memories, even though I've gone through several tissues while I've been "talking" to you. I HATE!!!, as I've said so many times before, that from now on, life will always be bittersweet. I would do anything for just one tear free day... I wish I had a magic wand and all of TGW could have one tear free day... I don't think this is asking for too much, but, and this is another one of those really BIG BUTS!!!, unfortunately "Mr. Grief" is here to stay...
As always, sending you and Rambo hugs, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB
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