My beloved husband and my son's graduation from high school is coming up. Every time I think of it, I feel like I am drowning in grief. My husband would have been too sick to attend, but he would have been waiting at home to see the diploma, hear all about it and celebrate. Now it will just be my son and me. My sister said she will try to come, but can't commit. That's the kind of family I have. How will I get through the ceremony without losing it completely? How can I make it a nice day for our son? I cry at graduations anyway, but this one will be unbearable, as will Father's Day and birthdays, and Thanksgiving and Christmas and so much more. How can I be strong and act in a way that would honor my husband? Please give advice. I am so sad and afraid without my husband of 40 years. I can't believe he is gone. It will be two months on 5/9 and it seems like forever.