8 Weeks ago, my best friend and soulmate took her own life while I slept in our bed. I found her in the shop and our .38 was laying beside her. She had struggled all her life with inner demons and I really thought that we were doing well. There are so many unanswered questions and the note she left me was so awful. I would have done anything for her and I would give anything to just have the chance to live that day again. I am so lost.
I’m so sorry for your loss. My partner of 14 years & father of my children took he’s own life of the 4th October, I know exactly how you feel I still haven’t come to terms with it, my life has no meaning anymore, I don’t no where I’m meant to go from here. I don’t have any answers on how to get through this but if u need someone to talk to that understands or just listen please message me
Glou2323 and like posters, All of us wonder if something could have been different. Especially suicide. I wrestled with likely preventable cancer not dealt with in a timely manner. I know a bi-polar woman now that on more than one occasion I said I will call 911 to have the authorities intervene. She is on a ton of medications and has received extensive counseling. Glou2323 the picture you selected does show there was a happy time in your relationship. That time may have been the best your partner ever knew. One person, I knew lost a business and was a pilot recreationally. I think to provide for his family's future he rented a plane. One friend of ours was a counselor. A dissolving relationship and suspected cancer, an overdose. I can not know your partner's history or experiences that lead to her destination. Obsessional thinking. Convinced the worst outcome is the only outcome. I know I spent months over the question, why. Truly sorry for your loss and this road you will be on. Heartfelt condolences. Paul M.
Sending you whatever you may need or want, or even the ability to identify what that is right now and tomorrow. Thank you for sharing your story with us.
