Welcome, "Heyhoney" from the Ontario area. As you can see, there are other widows & widowers from your area, on Grief in Common ( GIC). I'm deeply sorry about the death of your dear husband, and your young son before that. May I ask your first name, and that of your husband? My wife, Linda, died suddenly in front of me, at 68. We were married 25 yrs, no children. I was devastated, bc she was my best ( & only ) friend and family. I had to see a grief counselor. That was over 4 yrs ago. She suggested GIC, but I didn't join until end of July, 2021. I'm glad I did. I've become close to DEB, Robin, and Karen, to name a few. They all have pets, so, if you do, you may want to reach out to them. I also have 3 brothers here: Gary, from Indiana, George, from Illinois, and Chad, from Texas. I live on the northern coast of Massachusetts. My user name is Van Gogh, but my name is Lou.