A daughter, and bride to be, grieving the loss of her father...

Hello everyone,

So sorry we are all here facing the same kind of difficult loss. Grateful we have a place like this for support. Happy to help any others in any way I may be able to. I newly joined this forum as it has been 6 weeks since I lost my dad. He was a long time heart patient and lived with an LVAD for nearly 12 years. Through his health struggles he was all but forced to become sober and it was in the last years of his life when I felt we really started truly getting to know one another. I am so grateful God gave us that time but also processing the grief that now comes with the loss. I am engaged to be married this November and while his health made us perpetually unsure how he would be doing by then, the reality of now knowing he will not be there is setting in and probably one of the hardest parts for me personally to process. My fiancé is very loving and supportive but he has not had to face such loss in his life yet so some things he just can not understand nor do I want to expect or project on him too.

I am a person of faith, which keeps me going in many ways. I am an actor/performer, with my roots in live theater but enjoy working in film also, it has always been an outlet for me, a big part of my identity as well, but this season has been the most quiet one in this area that I have had in a long time due to being there for my parents and now processing the loss of dad. I also work and have my M.A. in counseling psychology so I feel I “know the road map” of grief sort of speak but I am learning that living it is different and very much its own journey.

Thank you to those who have shared here. I offer to share this space with anyone here that can relate or feels led to offer an ear or may need one themselves. I’ll be here, trying to navigate this journey.