This is my life now...managing an unfixable pain. My husband's dad died in 2020, after that my husband was different. The abuse started slow. Name calling, yelling, gas lighting. Accused me of cheating...you name it, he did it. I dealt with it as I thought it was his grief. On March 2 he physically abused me, I told him to leave and I was filing for divorce because this was not okay. March 3 he took his life in my backyard. It was supposed to be a murder/suicide but the cops got there before me. I am lost and broken.